Although I disappoint myself

I got introduced to Jaeson Ma (a preacher/evangelist) from a post on FB, I looked him up on youtube, watched several of his sermons and he speaks so fast and passionately in the presence of the Holy Spirit, and he's so real, full of mistakes and flaws but with a dream to please Jesus Christ and be like him. I think it's quite important that my spirit is given the message of truth and life from different servants of God, especially because I can relate better to a person like Jaeson who is 31 now I think, he's been through some really dark times of which he's been forgiven and given grace and reading his blog speaking of his triumphs and failures day by day as a son of God is inspiring. I hope to be the hope of somebody one day. I want to experience God's unfailing love and grace more deeply everyday, learn to love myself although I fail although I am weak in following Jesus' footsteps, because God has looked to me and given me another chance, His love never fails - and it's so hard to understand what something means to never fail because not one thing stands forever except God - and I am His daughter. Peace to all of you who are reading this.